I’m a bit better…still feeling down but not quite as bad. I
think I’ve just come to place of there’s nothing I can do…I will just continue to watch the clownish shit show play out…I will continue to tell those that chose this I hope they get exactly what they voted for…lol..funny though, it seems to anger them…kinda like they have regrets….lol…oh well! You did it! Unfortunately those of us that didn’t have to suffer as well, but we will make it!I will continue to stay away from those that wanted this…I can’t bring myself to be around them. I’m not going to my family’s thanksgiving dinner this year…I just can’t bear the thought of being around them knowing they betrayed my grandkids…it’s unconscionable to me.
I will instead spend it with my kids and grandkids the weekend before and let them know they are loved and accepted no matter what. They are good, decent, intelligent, empathetic human beings and I’m proud to be their mom and nana.
Thanksgiving day I will cook a dinner for farm man and I. We will spend a quiet day at home and be grateful for what we have and what we have accomplished.
It’s hard, it’s really hard…the pain is real…I know we will all be ok…or at least I hope…we will get through this..we may have battle scars at the end, but we will stand firm in our convictions throughout the battle. Sometimes we have to lose a few battles to finally win the war!
I will continue to get better…I will continue to stand firm in my beliefs. I will continue to stay away from those that cannot respect those different from them. I will continue to stay away from those that support a rapist, pedofile, serial cheater, wanna be dictator, xenophobic, homophobic clown that is making a mockery of this country. I will also continue to remind them this is what they wanted.
I will eventually gain my footing and find my center again…right now I’m angry, hurt and sad…it won’t last forever…I understand hanging onto these feelings only hurts me…I equally understand accepting policies that harm others is wrong as well. We cannot and should not accept laws and policies that harm others. Those that do, they are not going to be in my life.
I am better…I will continue to get better…I don’t want to continue to feel the way I do. I feel disassociated and disconnected…like in a fog…like living in a dream. Today, I am better…tomorrow I will be even better...I’m working through all the feels and fear…
It will take time….but I’ll get there…and you will too…
Stay Alert, Stay strong, stay vigilant…
Until next time..