I learned I miss the life I had before 2016. Life was much kinder to us all before then.
I learned family doesn’t love unconditionally. Family, some families only love and accept you if you fit in their mold and hold their same beliefs.
I learned family can hurt you worse than anyone else on this planet and be ok that they did! They idolize a person that does the same thing, so they think it’s ok!
I learned people I thought were good people really are not. They support and condone things that are abhorrent.
I learned people really are ok treating those different from themselves with contempt.
I learned that those that shout freedom the loudest really only mean freedom if they are like them. If you are not Christian, if you are LBGTQ, if you are not white, if you believe in having a choice in healthcare and what to do with your body, and you are a different political party…then freedom is not yours! So, not freedom for ALL…it’s freedom for ALL LIKE YOU!
I learned hate is far more prevalent than love in the Christian community. It’s covered up with cherry picking scripture and spouting words from the mouth that sound nice! Dig deep…the hate is there…it runs really, really deep! Listen not to what is being said, but rather what is not!
I also learned I am a good person with a big heart! That has a soft spot for the less fortunate and marginalized.
I learned I have empathy for the marginalized and those not like me.
I learned I see through the bullshit most don’t!
I learned those like me are not liked much! We tell the truth in the face of lies! We have gifts that are intimidating to most people. We are misunderstood.
I learned my circle was really just a dot! I had to let a lot of people go this year. It was painful but it had to happen! Allowing yourself to be surrounded by negativity and bully’s will throw off your energy! Do not allow it!
I learned life is so very short…make the most of it while you are here. Just be a good person, love everyone, treat ALL with dignity and respect. Realize we are all human beings just trying to muddle through life. We all feel the same feelings, bleed red and just want to be loved.
I learned most people are not who they pretend to be. People that are authentic and real, like me, are rare!
I learned to trust my instincts and respect my gift of discernment. I also learned most people won’t listen when you try to tell them what’s on the horizon. Sadly they will find out to late!
I learned most people will accept horrific behavior from people as long as they can justify it in some way.
Over all I learned what and who I don’t want to be! I don’t want to be a Christian that treats their family member like shit because they don’t agree with them. I want to be a person that loves all people even those that don’t fit in, especially those that don’t fit it! I want to continue to have empathy for those that have left violence and sought refuge in a country they believed was better. I want to continue to speak truth about what is happening even when it falls on deaf ears or people try to defend their position. Truth is truth…it doesn’t change! I will also continue to distance myself from those that treat me unkind, threaten or harass with me with hateful rhetoric.
I am not perfect! I feel anger, rage, contempt just like you. Difference is I feel it when other people are being mistreated and you feel it when you feel you are being mistreated! Our leaders have instilled in our minds we, the Americans are victims of some huge plan to hurt us. We can’t see we are hurting ourselves with our hatefulness. Our leaders are hurting us.😒
Going forward I’m going to do less on social media and focus on things that are beneficial to others and their wellbeing. I will continue to bring awareness to the truth even when it’s hard.
I will continue to learn to embrace who I am and what I stand for and will also help others accept themselves for who they are.
I will not allow those that support hate to be in my life. It’s not who I am and not who I want to be. We must let go of all manner of unkindness if we ever want to get back on track. But realistically I know that will never happen. People like hate, it gives them a sense of control and power.
I will continue to blog and I will continue to spread awareness from a non partisan perspective. Hate is non partisan and so is love and kindness.
My heart hurts and is heavy. I’m honestly not sure how to move forward other than one step at a time and to continue to defeat lies with truth & hate with love.
I’m still sad, but getting better…I’m learning to be proactive rather than reactive. I am a passionate person when it’s a subject I care deeply about. When I know beyond a doubt I am right, I will not be silenced or backed into submission. I will fight for the rights of those being marginalized and mistreated based on their gender, race, and beliefs.
I have to wonder if my passion about marginalized and mistreated people come from ancestors accused of witchcraft and killed. They, the Christian’s, didn’t kill witches, they killed innocent men and women. Our witch hunts today are based on the same bullshit of those that are different…only today is it’s not “witches” we are looking for…think about that!
My hope going into 2025 is that we can all look inward, not outward….inward, and ask ourselves why we believe the things we believe? We need to ask the hard questions, not of each other, but of ourselves. Why are we allowing ourselves to be influenced by people that don’t give 2 fucks about us…you! Why? Because they fill a need within yourself to be in control? They bring out the worst in humanity! We are seeing it before our very eyes and yet we cannot admit it! Did we learn nothing from our history in 1632?
We’re failing. We are failing as a society, as individuals and as a country. A house divided cannot stand! And each side blames the other…Ask why you’re not seeing it too, if you’re not!
I’m going to close for now…I hope you take time to reflect on this past year, but more importantly on yourself….things you could’ve done better, how you could’ve been more understanding, kinder…why you support the things you do…and be honest…no one will have to know your answers…they are yours alone…I wish everyone well going into 2025. Stay safe, be vigilant and love each other!
Until Next Time…
The homestead lady
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