We will be ok

My mom is having her annual thanksgiving get together today…I nor my kids will be in attendance. I can’t speak exactly for their reasons but mine are plenty. While I love my mom and my brother I’m not not ready to sit in a room playing like all is good all the while knowing they hurt not only my granddaughters, but so many across the nation….all for what they thought would improve the economy…jokes on them….I just can’t…my nephews and their wives feel the same as I do, but will most likely attend. I just can’t…

This has profoundly affected me and I guess this is my one way of standing up for myself. My quiet way of saying fuck you! 

I am far better than 2 weeks ago and I continue to work through my feelings. I’m trying to surround myself with people that get it and I can talk with openly. Where I live that’s really, really hard…I’d even say impossible. 

Haven’t left the house in 2 weeks. No desire at all to about amongst people. The very thought makes me cringe. I’ll get there…but right now I’m just decompressing. I’m trying to talk to people but it feels forced…I’m tired…just tired…

However; I am getting better! Slowly… but each day I seem to feel a bit more hopeful… I hope if you read here and are likeminded you know it’s ok to feel sad, angry, hurt, betrayed…it’s normal…you’re not being dramatic, stupid or wrong! It’s hard! I see you and I understand! You’re not alone! 

So, today will be a quiet day at home! Thanksgiving day will just be me and the hubs…I will cook us a nice traditional dinner and just enjoy the day. 

Be easy on yourself today…this is hard to understand…but keep going! You’ll be ok! We will be ok!

Until next time…

Much love & light