Letting go

  

I’ve always said the autumn season is a time of letting go...as we watch the warmth of summer slip into the coolness of the autumn I also notice how gracefully the trees drop their leaves...the leaves will no longer serve them for this next season...I’ve sat outside in recent days, just being still....watching the leaves float gently to the ground in the breeze...the trees let go with such gentleness, yet an unquestioning certainty that this is what they are to do...let go! As a human letting go doesn’t come gracefully…at least for many of us. We don’t give up without lots of tears, yelling, asking why and lots of going over and over things in our heads….then, we finally come to understand, that this is but a season…it may be a season of unrest with many storms, but we trust it’s just a season…and hope we don’t have to weather the storm forever.

I used to be one that gave everyone the benefit of the doubt, but that really came to a complete halt this past week or so...one thing my seclusion on the homestead has taught me is that it’s ok to stay to yourself, but sometimes you must venture out and speak up...keep your circle extremely small, trust no one, what people don’t know they can’t ruin, people pretend to be your friend when it’s just a ruse to get something from you, people say things to you that are snarky then just disappear or pretend “you took it wrong”...or you find they stand and support ideologies that are so far outta step with who you are and what you stand for that you can no longer allow them in your space…these are the signs to Let go!! The season is over and that situation is no longer serving your highest and best good. I’ve had to let many people go this past few days. It’s not easy..I’m hurting…but I can’t, I won’t allow certain things, people or beliefs in my life. If it steals my peace, it must go.  Once you show me who you are, I believe you and act accordingly. 

It’s hard! I think sometimes the universe uses situations that are so trying, so hurtful and so devastating to show us which direction we need to go. We have to let people, things and situations go in order to become better. I fully understand that with time all darkness is illuminated by light. When you are shown the darkness, walk towards light the first time. Don’t wait until darkness rears its ugly head a second time. We must be and do better. We are in a battle…I choose the light..and the light will always win…we must trust the process. 

I am trying to stay focused on fall preparations to be ready for winter...I’m trying to distract myself with projects. I’m taking time to be quiet and take care of myself. Just spending time with those that bring me joy and happiness. Those that want better and will fight for better. Those that protect those that can’t protect themselves. Those that radiate love,unity, peace, joy, happiness and want to be better…I have no room for those that radiate hate, division, chaos, sadness and sow discord. Some will try to say they aren’t like that…that it’s the others are…prove it!  I’d love to see your proof!

So as the quietness of the autumn/winter season takes over the homestead I am realizing it allows much time for reflecting as we are chased indoors from the cooler temperatures....we can reflect on relationships, goals, ourselves and what we would like to change....while I much prefer spring/summer I also admit I find something comforting and nostalgic about sitting in front of a fire, sipping coffee with my favorite magazine or seed catalog...I also enjoy having candles lit to add a bit of warmth to my home and the aroma of fresh baked bread or a pie wafting throughout the house...I will make use of this less busy time to plan for next spring, reflect on all that happened in our country and to reflect on how I can be a better person...we will write out our goals in all areas, projects to complete and simply rest in preparation for the busyness that the spring will bring....

Until next time...

THL